Monday, December 24, 2007



Ladies and Gentlemen! I woke up this morning and saw this floridian vagabond lying on my bedroom floor! His name is Jeffry David Moore! He gotten tired of the bureaucratic life of florida hospital and is now enjoying true freedom in the land of Ukraine! This photo that i took five minutes ago while he was and is still sleeping is evidence of his journey! So give it up for Jeff!

Thursday, December 20, 2007


If I was much farther west my experience here be completely different, and I would not be learning the things I am learning. I feel like I am receiving the most intensive educational experience of my lifetime thus far. I think this is because I am actually engaged in it, back at school I didn’t get as engaged with my education as I am here in Ukraine. The name ‘Ukraine’ is literally translated as “boarder lands,” and this is exactly what it is. Kiev has been occupied by a couple different cultures; western and eastern and they have all left their mark. You all should come live here! Ukraine has a heavy and painful history, but also some stunningly beautiful history too. It really feels like I am living on the brink of something, spiritually, personally and geographically. It’s just been so good!

The people here are so fascinating, they have all seen so much pain, and you can see it in their eyes in the lines on their face. But you can also see an honesty to what life is that a lot of Americans have never seen. Things are real to them, that is the only way I can say it. Life is real, if they have a cold they have a cold, while people from the sates drowned it with cough medicine and they sleep it away. Dose that make sense? What I mean is; they are in touch with every part of life, and they feel it all. ALL OF IT!!!! How often do Americans do that, I swear its like were all on drugs! But this is what I needed, I needed to be stripped of my over consuming life and learn to… “Consider the lily’s.” I think that’s part of what Jesus was talking about. Back at Union some of my favorite teachers told me how everything is connected and how wonderful it is to be connected with life and God in this great circle. But now I feel what they were talking about, before their words seemed like nice poetic words that felt good to hear and made me think that I was a true intellectual for buying into. But now being here, I see/feel/know that we are all the same, and were all in this together, and that everything is connected. A year is not long enough to learn all of the things I want to learn! I haven’t become a communist, like some people told me I would, but I think I understand what it was, and my understanding of it makes me more afraid of the United States. Because I am beginning to feel like our obsessive dedication to the ideology that capitalism has offered to the world is just as dangerous to the human spirit as Stalinist communism has been to people here. And I know some people here feel the same as I do. There are a lot of people who feel completely overwhelmed by the drastic shift that has taken place here in the past 17 years. Watching this change has thought me that there is a cost to my living, and then there is a cost of my living. And I needed to slow down to realize this, so that I could connect with this world we live in, and the creator of it. I feel like for the first time in my life I am beginning to see God for who he is, but I am sure it’s only part of his back. But it is beautiful, and so inviting! And most of all it is healing! And this is what humanity needs right now.

Every seven years Hebrew farmers would give their crops a Sabbath rest, so that they could support more crops later on. And today if this happened we would have an economic disaster! So we just pump our crops and animals with chemicals so that we can keep ourselves going at this incredible pace. There is a cost that we are going to pay if we don’t slow down. We need the Sabbath! Never have I believed it more.

Friday, December 7, 2007


Today pastor Rich visited Julie and I. I was not looking forward to it at first, because I was feeling old feelings about union. When I stepped off the metro and saw them I was a little twisted inside, but it was ok. As the morning went on it proved to be really nice. I haven’t had much time to spend with guys, so it was really cool just to chat it up with a guy for once. I kinda feel like I am around a lot of women here, and any chance I get to chat or joke with a guy it just fires me up! I’m in a wired place, I feel like one of those dads who has like 3 daughters and always wished for a son. Or maybe a little like one guy I know who was raised with 9 sisters, yeah his life is bad! So yeah I feel him or one of those dads, to many women! Some of this may seem vulgar, but I need to laugh and tell inappropriate jokes! Being a missionary doesn’t change you all at once you know! Anyway, I didn’t tell dirty jokes too pastor Rich, although one came to mind… Julie and I showed him around Kiev. We took him to some of the cooler things in the city. We showed him St. Andrews Decent, some of the cool buildings in the center, and then some of the cool places in the Podil region. It was cool to talk with someone from the US, to hear about what is happening out there. And then Rich left at around 1:00 pm and I went to the airport and talked with the cab driver for a while because it turned out that I knew him. Alex was the cab driver who took me to Kiev on my first day there. And so we talked for a while about music and life in Kiev and stuff like that. Then I went and hooked up with my friend Kiril, and he helped me pay for my buss ticket to Praha for this upcoming holiday. And so yeah I my ticket so that means I’ll be coming to see you Andrea! After I bought the ticket Kiril and I hung out and talked for a while, and that was really cool! Once again time with a fellow man, it was quite refreshing! Kiril is a great fellow and is has one of the best senses of humor of anyone I have met out here. I told one or two inappropriate jokes; I liked how that made me feel. All these thoughts about man time are reminding me of my freshmen year when Jeff, Jared, BJ, Brandon, Ehren, Wes, and I would cook steaks and drink O’douls in my dorm room at like 2 in the morning on Friday night. Good times! Then after Kiril and I split I went to Levoborghna for the Friday night meeting. And there I found my Union College Christmas box! And there were amazing things from everyone! I loved it so! Zach sent me season 3 and 4 of the office and a hug from him and Israel! Sharon and Malcolm sent me a really nice letter! New creation sent me a freaking huge load of food, along with more roman noodles than I could eat in a year! Also a ton of people from New Creation sent me a ton of Christmas letters! The Ortner Center, sent me soap, and bath supplies from the guestrooms! Tanya sent me guitar picks! And staff from union sent me other cools stuff, like peanut butter, fry chick, a cup, post-it notes, a wad of pens, paperclips! THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!! Also thanks everyone for all of the letters, they all meant so much to me! So this was a blog about today: a really good day. This was also the first installment of my weekly blogs! Did you hear that?!?!?! I said weekly!!! Seriously! Thanks to Tyler’s prodding I will start writing more blogs because they are cool and fun to read! And I want to hear from you, so I need to put out too! SO ENJOY!!!

Saturday, November 17, 2007



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Sorry for my lack of blogidg lately. Sometimes its heard for me to sink into a routine and forget to regularly post new stories. I haven’t really put up any posts that actually update you on anything in a little while. And I have had some fun experiences. One of which was my trip to Moldova last week. I had been in Ukraine for over two months and if I was to stay in the country for the whole year I had to leave a neighboring country so that I could apply for and get my visa that would allow me to stay in Ukraine for an entire year. I had originally request that I could go to Poland to do this, but my boss had wishes for me to go to Moldova and the company was paying for my trip and I only would have four days for the entire process anyway so I didn’t have much of a choice. But I was ok because the few weeks before I had been feeling a touch of wanderlust and was craving to travel. I like life in Kyiv but I’m always thinking about the world outside. Wherever I go it seems that I am wondering about what life is like somewhere else, but this is and has always been my plight.
Last Wednesday I went to the train station at 7:30 in the morning so that I could catch the 8:00 train from Kiev to Chisinau. This train rout actually use to be one the most important train routs in the Soviet Union, because it connected Moscow, Kyiv and Chisinau: three “capitols” of their respective regions. And so I got on board for the second half of the Journey. For this trip I had a traveling companion named Navina. She is another missionary from a different region of Ukraine, and I met her for the first time about ten minutest before embarked on a fourteen-hour train ride. I was looking forward to going to traveling through the countryside and seeing what the real Ukraine looks like. I had been cooped up In its capitol city for two months and hadn’t seen much of the countryside at all. It felt good to see the rolling hills and the sleepy little villages as the train slowly made its way away from the concrete jungles of Kyiv. As we made our way I began to talk with my new friend Navina. We talked about music, school, and travel. She lived in Russia two years ago, and after going back to the states she wanted to come back to Eastern Europe. We talked for a couple hours to acquaint ourselves with one another enough so that we felt comfortable traveling with each other. That day I went between reading and being distracted from my reading to look out the window at the compelling imagery. Seeing all of this was a great contrast to the soviet apartment buildings, broken concrete and trash ridden streets all around Kiev. Out my window I saw picturesque villages and farmers with horse drawn carts, and shepherds herding their sheep. It was so intriguing to see such simple living in a capitalist driven world of technology and money. I felt me take in a deep breath and sigh as I embraced the fact that not everyone worries about twenty things at once. People like the shepherd I had passed most likely were only worried about losing a sheep, and dinner that evening. All I could think was how I wanted that, just to live life simply and peacefully, it sounds great! So on the train ride down these were the basic thoughts that were floating around in my brain. And as we approached the boarder between Ukraine and Moldova I got my passport out to get it ready to be stamped. We went through a small little village and stopped before crossing a bridge over a wide river, when Ukrainian boarder officers got on the train and took my passport to be stamped. I sat and waited patiently for her to return it, when in Russian, she asked for my transit papers from when I entered Ukraine two months ago, and I didn’t have these papers. I have never needed them before when leaving or entering a country before so I was a little suspicious of this. When I said I didn’t have them then she said that she would be kicking me off the train. This honestly scared me at first, I was imagining myself roaming the streets of this little Ukrainian village for the whole night and maybe even longer. But then when I was getting my bags together she said for me to stop, and so I stopped gathering my things and looked at her, and she looked at me. And it was awkward! And then I realized that if they had a problem with my transit papers then they would deport me, and here I was trying to leave. So it didn’t even make sense that they would kick me off the train while I’m still in Ukraine. So basically she was just expecting a bribe from me, and I wasn’t speaking vary much Russian, and I don’t speak much Russian, so I just pretended that I had no idea what was going on until she got tired of waiting and she just left. So that was good! And with Bribe avoided I made it into Moldova. When we entered Moldova, I could feel the difference between Ukraine and Moldova. Ukraine is a vary poor country but like many Ukrainians often joke, Moldova makes Ukrainians greatful for what they have. And this I could see as we went into the first village. It looked like they hadn’t been told that the Soviet Union was over. Not exactly, but it was extremely soviet, there was concrete buildings everywhere, big red soviet stars at the edge of the town standing tall and waiting to welcome us. After this is got some sleep, and I must say that sleeping on a train has got to be one of the best ways to sleep ever! Sure the beds aren’t vary comfortable, but the rhythm of the rails just rocks you like a baby. And I just have to say that even though it took 14 hours to go maybe four hundred miles I have decided that traveling by train is the best way to travel. Car is stressful, because you’re the one doing all the work, and in an airplane you’re totally cheating, because you can travel 1000 miles in a couple hours. But traveling by train is an honest way to travel. You know you’ve come along way, but you know exactly what lies between you and where you’re going. And so we arrived around midnight in Chisinau. We were met by a really nice guy named Victor, he took us to a hotel where we slept.

The next morning we went to the Ukrainian embassy where we got the Visa request forms and began to fill them out. And when we spoke to the desk worker he told us that we needed Xerox copy’s of our passports and passport photos taken for our visa. So now we had to go back into town and find a place to do all of this. It sound like a simple task but it was not. We have never been there before and we didn’t even know how to get back to our hotel. So we caught a random marshrutka (mini bus) and took a ride through town. The first one took us out of town and within 15 minutes we were standing on a hill overlooking the city and a bunch of the wine vineyards. And these distracted me, so I went for a walk into the field to look at the vineyards and take some pictures, while Navina stood by the road waiting for a marshrutka. And after about eight minutes she started yelling, and I was off in the field taking pictures. So I ran, and in doing so my shoes got covered in mud. And when I tried the board the buss the driver started yelling at me. So I got out and cleaned my shoes as he drove away. I never felt like more of a foreigner, in my life. So we waited for another marshrutka. This one took us where we wanted to go. And within an hour and a half we had what we came for. So we made the journey back to the Embassy. And when we arrived at the Embassy we saw that it was closed! We rung the bell and asked when it would be open, and they said it would be closed until Monday. We were disappointed, not upset but disappointed. I like to travel a lot, and being stuck in a foreign country is something that I have done before so I was pretty laid back about the whole thing. So we found our way back to our hotel and watched some Moldavian TV. After about ten minutes my cell phone rang saying that I had received an SMS. So I checked it and my phone said that I had five new messages from my boss back in Kyiv! The first one read: “go home and relax, sorry for the trouble,” or something like that. The next one said: “Go to the embassy as fast as you can, get a cab. You have 30 minutes ” The next text message said: “are you one your way?” And the one after that said: “are you there yet?” So I received all of these messages at the same time, and I had no way of telling when they had arrived. So we franticly grabbed all of our things and ran our the door. I hailed the first taxi I saw and we directed him to go to the embassy as fast as he could. And so we sped through the narrow streets. There were absolutely no traffic laws in this city. The only rule was not to crash. Quite exiting I must say! As we drove we were dodging everything from people to livestock, it was a rush that was for sure. This would be our third trip to the embassy that day so we were serous this time, we rang the bell and my suspicions that we were late were correct. But we weren’t leaving without visas this time. So we just sat outside the gate. And eventually a man came out and took our papers inside. We waited for an hour and after an hour he came out with our passports with no visa but with individual bills for us to pay for our passports. We were to go to a bank that had been closed for an hour to pay for the passports. So we just went back to the hotel. And when we got back I looked at the bills. My bill was for $165, which seems like a fair price considering that it’s for a year long multiple entry business visa. But Navina is a Canadian citizen so her visa would cost $440. We were shocked. We didn’t just that amount with us on the trip, so we could afford to pay for the visas and have a little left over. So we paid for the visas. But one really cools thing was the SDA Union Office spotted us $100 so that we could afford to eat and still pay the visas. So that was a total God hookup!
This is turning out to be quite long so I will wrap it up soon. But it was basically a really enjoyable trip for me. After we got our visas we just wandered about the city for a couple hours. Moldova was a fascinating place to go. Because it was once a part of Romania, but when the Soviet Union formed they took a small chunk out of Romania. And so for the past almost seventeen years these countries have been trying to make a switch to capitalism. You could imagine that this would be very difficult to go from on end to the opposite end of the spectrum. And I see the hardships in Ukraine all the time, but Ukraine has a good agricultural economy with valuable exports. But in Moldova they only have one (legal) export; wine. I’m told Moldavia was where the Soviet Union got all of its wine. But with only that as an export its difficult to build any kind of healthy economy. And it showed in its capitol city. It was bleak the downtown streets were cracked un repaired. The apartment buildings looked worse than most of the ones in Kyiv. There were lots of beggars everywhere, and most of them were old. On Sabbath we walked passed the edge of the center of town, and into the slums where it went from European looking to looking completely third world. Grant it in Ukraine there are parts of Ukraine that are like this too, I just haven’t seen much of them. Kyiv is a pretty nice city for the most part. The worst I’ve seen is just the concrete apartment blocks that seem to stretch on forever, which is its own kind of new experience for a westerner like me. But in Chisinau you could feel people longing for the old days of the Soviet Union. There’s something you would have never heard from Regan admit. People miss it. Moldova is considered to be the poorest country in all of Europe and you can tell. It was eye opening for me, we saw a place that our American eyes completely ignore. It was painful to see, but I’m glad I saw it, I want to learn more about this in Ukraine and all over the former Soviet Union.
On the train ride back we were in a sleeper car with two very drunk Moldavians. The one many who was supplying their little party had over nine bottles of wine in his single duffle bag. This was outrageous! I could see within 3 hours that these two men by “AA” standards were compete alcoholics but the nine bottles of wine should have given that away on the spot. Bottle after bottle they would open and drink until it was empty until around eleven o’clock when they both went to sleep. This was a great relief, but while they were awake I had fun listening to them tell their stories and brag about all of the languages they had studied. One man said he studied French, Italian, and Spanish. But he didn’t seem to be able to say the name of the language in its own language just in Russian. They also thought me some great and enlightening lessons about Russians verses Moldavians. He said that Russians are barbarians because they drink this terrible drink called Vodka, and that it made them into stupid alcoholics. But Moldavians on the other hand now they had real class they all hate Vodka and love Wine. And because they drink wine they grow strong and healthy and smarter. I smiled an nodded my head and said “Da” and “Harasho” while he went on explaining this. And right before this he said, “I like you! Your remind me of my son!” I was honored by this statement, until I remembered that this man was completely trashed. After this he went to be and left me to my reading. In the morning after I woke I saw that the trees and all of the hills had a nice thick layer of snow and when we arrived in Kyiv at one o’clock we saw that Kyiv had four inches of snow and was looking so beautiful! It was a great trip and by the end of it I had made a new friend, seen another country, gone on my first international train trip, learned to navigate a city I have never been to before, was educated about Moldavians superiority over Russians, and grew a little bit in the process. It was an adventure and I hope this Blog was not so long that it bored you to tears.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Be Here Now


I’m sooooooo glad to be in this country! I like to teach my intermediate class a lot. Today we were discussing what it is to have a live changing experience. After an introduction I asked the class to write a short paragraph about their own life changing experiences that they had gone through. They all went deep! Every one of them sheared some extremely powerful and sometimes tragic stories. One student talked about the day he watched his girlfriend get hit by a car, another told about how heard it was to move to Kiev and leave all of her family behind in a small country village, she described in how lonely she gets sometimes (I could really related to her). But the most powerful of all of the stories was from one girl whose best friend tragically died only a month ago of “a terrible sickness.” There were many other stories sheared that evening, but every one of the students seemed to have the one thing in common: how their struggles in life taught them to appreciate the gift of life all the more more. Each one of them echoed that they want to cherish every moment of life, and every person they meet and every thing about life, down to the smallest detail. This is a lesson I feel that I am learning more and more and deeper and deeper every day while I’m here. Impart because I am away from the people I love most. But most of all I sense it in the not so profound connections I have with people. Like with my students, and with the new friends I am making here, and even the woman I help onto the mini bus on the way across town. I really just want to cherish everyone and every moment and every thing about this life because it is the only chance we have to experience God.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

First Impressions



I’ve been in Ukraine in two and a half weeks and it feels like time is messing with my head. In some ways I feel like it’s been a month already and in other I feel like it’s only been a day or two. But when I look back over the past two weeks I see that a lot has happened to me. I haven’t had Internet enough for me to be able to blog enough. But I will try get you up to speed. I arrived on September 6th and found out that two of my bags were lost somewhere between Minneapolis and Kiev, I had made one stop in London so it was possible that one or both of them were left there. When I got my bags it was two days later and they were delivered by the airlines, at 2:30 in the morning. When I got passed customs with my one bag I met a nice guy named Alex whom was sent by the school to pick me up. He called Elena my to be boss and spoke in Russian for a while. While that was going on I ended up tuning out their conversation and looking around me at the area around the airport. Everything looked, sounded, smelt, felt different about this place. It was crazy. After a few moments Alex turned to me and explained that there was a problem with finding me and apartment in town, so they were going to have me stay with couple that was related to some one at the school. So we drove into the city and I could see were a tall soviet looking apartment buildings that seemed to go on forever, everything seemed to look the same, I wondered how anyone could navigate through a city like this. Then we stopped at an apartment building Alex called up the people I would be staying with and the man said he would come down (in Russian). When he came down I shook his hand and the quickly realized that he didn’t speak a word of English. So for my first nine days or so I stayed with this couple in their spare room. They were kind, the woman didn’t speak English either, but she harassed me every day about me not wanting to eat. I wasn’t hungry at all for the first five days; I was too tired all the time from the Jet lag. I ate, but I just didn’t crave food very much. But it was great living with the couple, odd but after the first four days or so I started to like them. I would walk around the apartment with my Russian phrase book and try to talk to them. I know I slaughtered everything I tried to say, but they thought it was funny. The day I left the woman gave me tons of food to take with me to my new apartment, which I loved! Some of the Ukrainian food is amazing, some is weird, but for the most part its amazing. I miss spicy food though.
My first week of teaching was hectic, but fun. My lesson plans were a mess because as soon as I was starting to get them together I got sick and spent a couple days either in class or on the toilet, but after a couple days of that. But my students are fun. I really like teaching. It’s awesome when you know your connecting with them, and you know their learning. I think I have a knack for it; I really like the classroom environment.
My apartment that I moved into a little more than a week ago now is sketchy but it’s mine. I took pictures, have a look. The day I moved in was kind of depressing, when I saw how it looked as if nobody had lived there in years. I spent the whole evening cleaning so it was clean enough for me to feel at home. I don’t have any chairs just a bed in one room and a kitchen in the other. There are some benches next to a makeshift table in the middle of the kitchen, and I have an electric stove and just enough cups, plates, and silverware for one. I will need to buy more so I can have visitors. But like I said it it’s mine so there is a sense of pride I have about the place. The wallpaper, and flooring is amazingly tacky and I think that’s why I love it so much.
The city of Kiev is a beautiful place! It is a huge city that has about three million people in it. And just about everybody lives in apartments, its kind of a soviet thing. So as you could imagine there are apartments everywhere. But as you go towards the center of the city and other places around the city you will find that the city is built into tall hills that give you some nice panoramas over some great architecture and the big blue Dnipro river, which is super huge wide. Also there are a lot of parks, and in these parks it’s vary its so pretty. Even on a sunny day it feels like it just rained in the parks here. It feels kind of fresh, and the tree trunks are an almost black kind of dark, which gives a sort of ambience that really makes you feel like you are somewhere special. The orthodox churches are some of the most beautiful buildings I have seen. And to go inside one of them is awe-inspiring. The other day Julie and I wandered into one right as mass was beginning, there were monks singing in the rafters, their voices echoed thought the whole church. The decorations and murals are so ornate that they make some Catholics look like Quakers. Kiev is the center for orthodoxy, so here is where most of the saints are buried, and here is where all the main churches are, so it’s a vary religious place, but at the same time its vary religious at all.
It’s been an exiting few weeks here so far, and I am only beginning. I came here without a Visa, so my bosses are planning to send me to Moldavia or maybe Poland in a month or so for a couple days so I can get a visa. I would prefer Poland, because the next closest city to Kiev is Warsaw, and that would be soooooooo cool to go there! But anyhow it will be fun. And God is blessing, I am going through the adjustment stages and I really like this place and what it has to offer. And most of all I am loving how much simpler my life has been since I have come here. I am not stressing about a million things at once like I did when I was back home. God has met me here and left me feeling so much more simple. Its good to be simple; Jesus was extremely simple. And I feel like its a lot easier to understand what he was teaching when I feel simple too. Also Gods peace is a simple thing too! Its just realizing that all you need is God, and then taking advantage of his willingness to give you some peace from your insanity.
I hope everyone is well, don’t hesitate to shoot me an e-mail if you have any questions or just want to talk. I do get quite lonely at times, so I am glad to hear from old friends. Thanks for reading.
More pictures to come.

Thursday, August 30, 2007


The ball is rolling, the show is on the road, were ready for takeoff, were blowing this Popsicle stand, I’m leaving on a jet plane, need I say more... I can't believe it but its official, I’m going to Ukraine. Wednesday at 11:30 in the am I will be on a plane for Chicago where I will catch an overnight flight to London, and then on to Ukraine. Kiev will be my home for the next 11 months. Today I got my vaccinations; I got Hepatitis A and B, along with Typhoid and Tetanus, the Typhoid and Tetanus left a Charliehorse feeling in both my arms all day… weird. And now that I am immune from both kinds of Hepatitis and I can step on all the rusty nails I want and I am safe from typhoid what ever that is? I am ready to depart! Please keep in touch and keep an eye on the blog so you can keep and eye on me.
- Nat BEEDLE